Happy Friday everyone! It is finally the weekend. We drove to France this afternoon, already been to the dentist (I know we go to a French dentist, but it is only because it does not hurt and I am not prepared to try others) - and found out that Baby MiH has some sort of issue with his jaws, totally fixable with a bit of time. We are actually pleased we found out that because it might be the cause of his dribbling, snoring (not cute baby snoring) and speaking with a lisp. All of these were not major (except for the snoring in my face during the night) but we were wondernig what to do. So what an evening! So glad we might have an easy solution - if Baby MiH plays ball of course.
March has come and gone, and honestly I am not sure where it has gone. I am hoping to really slow down in April and enjoy the longer days, a bit more sunshine, and focus a bit more on the blog. The changes to Instagram meant that I have been spending less time on IG, I was quite disappointed to be honest. It is probably a good thing if that means more time to crafting and blogging. How do you feel about these changes?
Also last month I started getting in touch with bloggers I would like to know more about. There should be more features this month, from Mademoiselle Poirot and Kate.I am also meeting Beckie from Embrace the Cake who maks the most delicious raw cakes. I cannot wait to have her in my kitchen and get 'baking'.
There will be sewing, I can guarantee it, more knitting (I already have a finished beanie hat - so at least one finished item this month), maybe more natural dyeing, and cooking.
I am feeling quite exciting about April, how do you feel about April?
*I took this picture over the weekend at Chenies Manor
After Leo was born, I had issues with my blog. Why was I stressing myself over it? Who is reading it anyway? What are they getting out of it? It takes me so long to write posts sometimes that I was wondering whether it was worth it. I talked about it on the blog, and sort of carried on posting once every month or so. I carried on crafting, at snail pace, but I did. The stage of sharing seemed superfluous, at the end of the day if I wanted to share I could just post a picture on IG.
Came September I found a renewed interest in my blog - I was planning, getting guest bloggers, better pictures etc. I wanted to look after my blog. Leo and I had a great relationship then, and it was as if he knew I wanted to blog again, and let me between 12 noon and 3pm (he was super regular with his naps). It was going well.
Of course a month later, Leo left us. I was knitting at the hospital, I finished his jumper for his birthday. I shared my story on internet. Not to get sympathy (I got a lot of that at my doorstep) but so people knew and did not ask questions. They still did, but here we are.. The blog became a way for me to express some of these feelings. I did not want counselling (and please do not talk to me about counselling, because I will take my vacant look), but I needed to express how I felt - not all of it, but a bit of it.
If you wonder how I am and how I feel. I will tell you what I said to Lu on Sunday. I am a better because of Leo - because I had the amazing chance to be his Mum - and even if he is not here he makes me appreciate everything even more, even if it is the sunlight when I go and see him.
Don't get me wrong, I do not believe Leo should have gone - in fact I spent my Friday afternoon talking to the hospital to assess their responsibility (as you can imagine not so easy) - but this is my life now, and I need to embrace whatever this is. Baby MiH has made it impossible for me to escape it - I did not want to change his routine - so we are facing it all, the questions at clients' meetings, the Grandma's looks, the tiptoeing of people, some people blatantly ignoring us (by the way, this is not cool). I will keep telling Leo's story because he keeps with us, and he was a wonderful gift given to us, but I will also fight his case like a lioness.
I texted Lu the day Leo went. She did an amazing thing - she called on all the quilters to send her low volume blocks for a quilt to comfort us. Some of the blocks came from quilters I have followed for a long time - especially when I was quilting more - some from quilters I do not know but needed to express their sympathy through sewing and quilting. To all of you who contributed, I would like to thank you - because what you did was amazing, but also you made me realise that it does not matter if anyone reads this blog or not, I know that the relationships I made through this blog are priceless. I know there were cards, I am really sorry but I have not read them all. It is the hardest thing to do, reading in black and white the emotions of someone else. I will though, just one at a time.
